This night 14 years ago I shared a spectacular New Year's kiss, with a special guy.
It was turning 2004, there were green sparkles in the air and the wee hours of the night alive with unexpected camaraderie and magic. I suppose it all started with me telling him, in an offhand way that I had missed seeing him around. But it was an admission of more than that; he knew it before I did.
I think I changed his night for the better then, as he did mine. So easy it was, to acknowledge how we felt. That night, was the beginning of a romance that was to linger long. One that started the blooming of my heart. There's not a New Year's goes by I don't think of it, that wonderful surprising kiss we shared under the stars. Everything it led to. Love, and knowing there was someone out there who really liked me, and for who I really was. And ditto. It kind of changed everything.
Andy, in every year since, I've missed not seeing you around. My heart always searches you out. Didn't you know it? (I think you did.)
But this is the year I will miss you forever. It's so hard to believe you're gone. But there's proof: my world, emptier without you. My heart, anchored to this memory I will clutch like stardust. I cannot wish you Happy New Year anymore, but I can wish you peace. Peace and love and happiness and everything you couldn't find here xxX
Siobhán
